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    November 09

    What else??

    Refer back to year 2007, I am so naive, so pure, complaining about time not enuff..
    Haih!!! Time Flies!!
    Good night!!!
    April 29

    This Moment!!

    I still remain the same...But I don't know who is inside there...
    I don't dare to say out the truth... cause I don't want to get disappointed..
    But I know it shouldn't be me.. I am not the one.. I am not suitable to anyone...
    I had being cursed by someone else... I am dissocial!!!!
    February 14

    Goodbye my friend.. You are the best

    i dont know still got how many years i will remember you my friend... But at least i will never forget that... Candy Tan had a friend named Steven Kang Boon Siong... I only know that you named Steven Kang, after reading your news I just remember you are Boon Siong... How bad am I... If reincarnation really exist, you must find a better family and live a better life... My dear... I cannot accept you already leave us.. But I also have to accept.. My dear... you are one of my best friend.. I will remember that you are someone that very good in talking... talking with a very fast way... having a huge appetite... very serious in your own job... Positive mindset... A real good guy...
     
    I lose one of my friend that I can share my unhappiness with him.. I lose one of my friend that I can always fool around with him.... Thanks for being my friend..
     
    Peace !!! Steven... Kang Boon Siong < Jdams >
    January 05

    思念

    一月四日,我睡了一整天。
    到了晚上,一月五日。我醒了,我很想念他,想念以前的日子。想起以前,我好后悔没有体谅他。我好想打电话给他,告诉他我很想他。 我好后悔没有珍惜他。 为什么我们不能够好好的在一起。我想到他从我面前走过时,我怕得躲在一旁,我就哭了,因为我没有好好的把握机会,和他重逢的机会。可是,最后我还是没有打电话给他,我不想让他知道我还想着他。 我怕以后他都不会再听我电话,给我意见。他是一个好人,好男人,它是我梦寐以求的伴侣。
     
    我不知道他的心理还有没有我,我不知道他的心理是否清楚我还喜欢或是爱着他。我不知道我们分手的原因是什么,我不知道我做错了什么,我不知道他是否还对我有感觉。我很想念他,我好希望可以和他有说有笑,和以前一样,两人有说不完的话题,可以每天都在网上聊天,等不到对方的出现都不想睡的日子。
     
    他还在很忙吗?听他朋友说他现在搞着很多东西。他是一个有理想的人,他是一个不会为了其他人而放弃他理想的男人。我喜欢这样的他,我喜欢像他这样有事业心的他。好希望新年的时候可以约到他。我好想见到他,只是见到他罢了。现在的我,能见到他,我已经很满足了。我是否还有机会走进他心里??好想他。。 真的好想他。。 原来我找不到忘记他的理由,也好难找到任何一个人来代替他。
     
     
     
    March 28

    1 yr++

    After a year... What's on your mind exactly...
     
    Did Kenny's words work?????
     
    Candy, Dont think so much d....
     
    Peace of Mind~~~
    September 02

    考试。。。

    哎!考试又来了。。
    还好这一次我只考一科。。
    不过, 是最难的一科。。
    又要工作。。 又要考试。。
    求求Aaron Chow你放过我吧。。
    不要做到拜五可以吗??
    最多。。 太多submission我怕写不完。。
    没有时间读书怎么办??
     
     
    考试啊。。考试。。
    谁能够教我financial accounting????
     
    August 30

    我累了。。

    心情很乱 不知道想要写些什么。。
    我真的不知道该如何面对。。
    求求你,我累了。。
    不要再让我这样累好吗??
    如果一定要这样。。 我宁愿要求你放开我。。
    我们还是忘了一切。。 忘了彼此吧!!
     
    August 20

    Money!!!!!!!

    When i get my salary...
    I wanna buy a lot of things..
    Oh My God...
    The expensive for me to travelling is killing me..
    It made me cant buy my favourite things..
    and the most sad is ..
    somebody owe me money...
    but never thought of paying me back...
    Oh My God..
    Why i am so unfortune???
     
    5 months already ..
    i didnt go for shopping..
    I really cannot tahan d..
    altot this month salary is just cukup for me..
    but then i dun care ar...
    buy first just think abt it..
    next month i need to fight for my commission..
    get more client..
     
    Arrghhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!
    BB vs BB
    R & R forever..
     
    2007, 22 February.. I wanna apply Credit Card .............................................
     
    August 19

    so long...

    dun know is it coz of my job..
    everyday outstation..
    dun have time to acc him...
    so that made me feel like got no partner..
    we seem like too busy of our own work..
    we got no times to spend together..
     
    sometimes i will think if i not in direct sales...
    not in outstation team..
    will it be better???
    Maybe he really is too busy..
    I wont blame him
    I just hope like this dun remain too long..
     
     
    I start to accept my job..
    maybe coz of Mel b..
    finally a girl is following me outstation..
    felt more comfortable..
    At least i am not so stress like before..
    I remember somebody told me before..
    Working is like this one..
    Must be have stress.. 
    Still tot in college life so relax ar??
    U are working now..
    U should accept the stress ar..
    Dun want so stress..
    Then dun want to earn money lo...
     
     
    Direct sales actually is not so stress actually..
    Mel b, aaron, desmond.. teach me a lot..
    Aaron teach me how to do more sales..
    Desmond teach me how to be brave..
    and Mel b she teach me how to face this job..
    when the time i feeling down..
    got no sales.. she told me.. is like this one.. 
    Do sales sometimes need to depend on luck
    got luck then got sales..
    even u are very good in talking no luck also like this..
    this made me felt better.. at least i wont feel wanna resign again...
     
     
    Hope that i can get earn a lot money in this half year..
    I got many things wanna achieve..
    haha.. cant wait to get my salary..
    coz i know next month salary will be above 2000...
    aisk.. finally i see some return...
      
    July 10

    Back~~

    Such a long time dint update my blog...
    Maybe I had met him, so i no need to rely on blog anymore..
    keke..
    Dear... U made me felt so happiness..
    Now just realise what is happinesss...
    But also just realise what is tough...
    Everyday work like shit..
    I dun like my job...
    Wonder why my dear can suffer those year in sales line...
    ur tough time had gone.. and i just start..
    haih!!!!!!!!!!!!!
    !!!!!!!!!!! I WANNA RESIGN AGAIN AR!!!!!!!!!!!
    May 03

    Crazy

    In my mind.. i keep asking myself to study.. study.. study.. but then why i cannot just sit there and study??
    I very pekcek.. very very very pekcek..
    I very scare... very very very scare..
    I dun know what am i doing.. what am i study..
    I cant study.. I see all the word.. and my mind are blank...
    I see all the formula.. and i dun know how to do..
    I try to realise.. but still cant get the answer...
    I easy to give up nowadays.. once i dun know... I give up...
    I dun know what to do..
    I am REALLY stress.. but I still do nth..
    WHAT THE HECK!!!!!! FUCK OFF!!!!!!
    April 27

    Siapa

    歌词:Siapa -  温力铭
     
    *婆婆 我想念妈咪*

    Siapa 是你吗? 到底谁会疼爱我啦 为什么我一个
    Mengapa Dimana 是否爱会存在的啊 Siapa disana

    yeah~ listen

    知不知道当你还没来到这世界的时候
    舅舅对你妈妈天天都吵架
    恨她恨她 因为每天都让家里很多烦恼 没有一天好
    婆婆天天睡不好 睡不到
    因为担心你妈妈 我的姐姐会出事 会搞出很糟糕的事
    婆婆天天怕 家里天天骂
    没有一天好 希望有一天吧

    到了今天你来这世界
    我们生活变得变得更多火花 更多灿烂的火花
    是因为你的笑容 是因为你带来希望
    给了我们全家人知道 不要放弃 不要逃避
    我的姐姐就是你的妈妈 (哈哈)
    我的妈妈就是你的外婆 你知道吗
    就等于你是我的家人 等于我家人
    等于我们一起走未来的路 好吗 好吗

    Siapa 是你吗? 到底谁会疼爱我啦 为什么我一个
    Mengapa Dimana 是否爱会存在的啊 Siapa disana

    一天一天我们看着你慢慢地长大
    你已经开始会讲话 有时候很不听话 (哈哈)
    你这坏蛋有时候会讲笑话 真的没办法 真的没办法
    我在想你以后会不会也这样的开心
    我很担心你以后会不会做工不专心
    我很怕你以后没有人照顾 那真的不幸
    所以你一定要学会独立照顾自己 知道吗
    现在婆婆和妈妈都一直担心你
    放了全部时间和希望 为了你 所以 不用怕
    不要失望如果同学们欺负 说你没有爸爸
    算甚么 最重要
    现在有疼你的外公外婆妈妈舅舅 那就够了
    慢慢来 慢慢学 要乖哟
    不要学坏 那就已经够了 那就已经让我们骄傲了
    听到吗 yeah~

    Siapa 是你吗? 到底谁会疼爱我啦 为什么我一个
    Mengapa Dimana 是否爱会存在的啊 Siapa disana

    单亲妈妈请你不要放弃
    男生也许爱不下去
    我知每天都有新的惊喜
    未来还是要努力活下去

    单亲妈妈请你不要放弃
    男生也许爱不下去
    有我们陪你走下去

    Siapa 是你吗? 到底谁会疼爱我啦 为什么我一个
    Mengapa Dimana 是否爱会存在的啊 Siapa disana

    Siapa 是你吗? 到底谁会疼爱我啦 为什么我一个
    Mengapa Dimana 是否爱会存在的啊 Siapa disana
    April 18

    一公升的眼泪

    粉雪

    Konayuki mau kisetsu wa itsumo sure chigai
    Hitogomi ni magirete mo onaji sora miteru no ni
    Kaze ni fukarete nita you ni kogoeru no ni

    Boku wa kimi no subete nado shi tte wa inai darou
    Soredemo ichi oku nin kara kimi wo mitsuketa yo
    Konkyo wa naikedo honki de omotterunda

    Sasaina ii aimo nakute Onaji jikan wo ikite nado ike nai
    Sunao ni nare nai nara Yorokobi mo kanashimi mo munashii dake

    Konayuki nee kokoro made shiroku somerareta nara
    Futari no kodoku wo wake au koto ga dekita no kai

    Boku wa kimi no kokoro ni mimi wo oshi atete
    Sono koe no suru hou he sutto fukaku made
    Orite yukitai soko de mou ichi do aou

    Wakari aitai nante Uwabe wo nadete itano wa boku no hou
    Kimi no kajikanda te mo nigirishimeru Koto dakede tsunagatteta no ni
    Konayuki nee eien wo mae ni amari ni moroku
    Zara tsuku Asufaruyo no ue shimi ni natte yuku yo
    Konayuki nee toki ni tayori naku kokoro wa yureru
    Soredemo boku wa kimi no koto mamori tsuduketai

    Konayuki nee kokoro made shiroku somerareta nara
    Futari no kodoku wo tsutsunde sora ni kaesu kara


    總是錯過細雪飛舞的季節
    就算人潮擁擠紛亂 天空也一樣
    風吹起 相似的冰凍
    我不能不了解你的一切

    因為一億人中我見到了你

    雖然沒有證據 我是真的這麼想
    沒有細微的口角 就無法在同樣的時間內生存

    若無法坦率誠實 喜悅與悲傷就都是虛幻

    細雪 啊 若連內心都染成雪白一片

    是不是就能分享兩人的孤獨
    我把耳朵貼近你心胸
    深深貼近那聲音的來源
    想更貼近 想再見一面
    想互相了解 想撫摸你的 是我
    你凍僵的手 也想緊緊的握住

    細雪 啊 前方的永遠太過脆弱

    就像柏油路上一個個的小斑點
    細雪 啊 無法依靠時間的內心在搖擺 
    就算這樣 我也想繼續守護你

    細雪 啊 若連内心都染成雪白一片

    包容著兩人的孤獨飛向天空

     

     

    Only Human
    by K

    kanashimi no mukou kishi ni
    hohoemi ga aru to iu yo…

    kanashimi no mukou kishi ni
    hohoemi ga aru to iu yo
    tadoritsuku sono saki ni wa
    nani ga bokura wo matteru

    nigeru tame ja naku
    yume ou tame ni
    tabi ni deta hazusa
    tooi natsu no ano hi…

    ashita sae mieta nara
    tame iki mo nai kedo
    nagare ni sakarau fune no you ni
    ima wa mae e susume

    kurushimi no tsukita basho ni
    shiawase ga matsu to iu yo
    boku wa mada sagashite iru
    kisetsu hazure no himawari

    kobushi nigirishime
    asahi wo mateba
    akai tsume ato ni
    namida kirari ochiru…

    kodoku ni mo nareta nara
    tsukiakari tayori ni
    hane naki tsubasa de tobidatou
    motto mae e susume

    amagumo ga kireta nara
    nureta michi kagayaku
    yami dake ga oshiete kureru
    tsuyoi, tsuyoi hikari
    tsuyoku mae e susume

    translation:
    Lyrics: Osanai Mai Translation: Jonathan Wu

    On the opposite coast of sadness
    is something called a smile

    On the opposite coast of sadness
    is something called a smile
    But before we can go there,
    is there something we’re waiting for?

    In order to chase our dreams, we can’t have a reason to run away
    We’ve got to go, to that far away summer’s day

    If we find it tomorrow, we can’t sigh
    Because like a boat that opposes the stream
    we have to walk straight on

    In a place worn down by sadness
    something called a miracle, is waiting
    Yet we are still searching
    for the sunflower that grows at the end of spring

    The warrior who awaits the morning light
    before he can clasp it with red nails, his tears glitter and fall

    Even if we’ve grown used to loneliness
    only relying on the light of the moon
    We have to fly away with featherless wing
    just go foward, just a little further

    As the rainclouds break
    the wet streets sparkling
    Although it brings only darkness
    A powerful, powerful light
    helps push us to walk on

    April 15

    What wrong??

    I dun know what wrong with me..
    keep on stay at home...
    even ah gong them ask me go out..
    I also dun really wanna go out..
    my laziness is like reach till another level..
    Keep on sleep.. sleep.. sleep.
    other than sleeping... i really dun know what i like to do..
    even dreaming.. also sleeping on my bed..
    Am I too tired or wat?
    Tired of my life.. This dreariness lifestyle..
    Going to start exam d.. And what i had done is nothing..
    Shouldn't carry on like this..
    But will I change???
     
    Shitting and Mop on the wall .... = =
    March 22

    我该怎么办?

    好烦!! 很多事情不明白。。
    也得不到答案。。
    人在这个世界里有很多不如意。。
    我这一点点挫折算什么。。
    很多时候我都呆呆的想。。
    如果那时,我这样这样就好。。
    可是已经迟了。。 我也没得再后悔。。
    当你们发呆时,到底是在想些什么。。
    是未来?? 还是以往?? 或是现在??
    我很爱发呆。。可是也不知道自己在想什么。。
    自己慢慢的变老了。。 烦恼增加了。。
    我要踏进社会工作了。。
    不知道我能不能做到最好。。
    不知道我可不可以找到适合我的工作。。
    不知道我可不可以找到适合我的人。。
     
    waiting
    March 19

    错了。。

    唉!! 我也不懂怎样讲。。
    我好像玩过火了。。
    玩到我自己也不懂自己的心。。
    我也不明白你。。
    好像太过荒谬了。。
    你不会觉得吗。。
    我还是不适合吧。。
    让我过完剩下的日子吧。。
    剩下读书的日子。。
    赫赫。。 笨笨的。。
    我好像讲错话了。。
    玩完了。。 keke
    March 17

    我真的累了。。

    那么有信心。。 那么有自信。。全都是骗人的。。
    我不甘心。。 我不能接受。。为什么。。
    这不是我要的。。 我以为离开你。。我会好一点。。
    我真的认为。。 但是。。 好像没什么改变。。
    我的心痛得像是你在抱负我。。
    我好像罪该万死。。
    我没了依靠。。 我该怎么办。。
    是时候放弃了吗?
     
    March 13

    3 years 4 years.. one day game over!!

    eh.. dun be mistake..
    i not mean myself..
    Sunday night, my roommate broke up with her bf..
    oh my god.. they been together 4 years already..
    Somemore.. can counted as engaged already..
    Just not yet sign the name..
    The reason is very simple.. She said.. 'gan qing dan le'
    Actually she got another guy to lean against..
    What can i said.. Hope she made the right choice..
     
    KCL.. I hope u will blissful..
    Although I dun really agree what u had did..
    But I still will respect and support ur final decision..
    Maybe for u.. End the relationship is really a release..
    Best Wish..
     
     

    Electricity Black Out Night

    Just now alpha condo having a very nice gathering..
    keke block mate gathering... so funny ah..
    Someone who came from B-12-* keep on swearing in cantonese..
    and after that many people reply him...
    And they seem like enjoy the swearing.. =.=''
    We sit at the balcony and look into the sky.. with a lot of noise..
    Guess what is that.. keke..
    Some of them play guitar..
    Some of them like acting the opera..
    still got a girl keep ask ppl sing for her.. coz she got nth to do.. and boring..
    and me.. sit alone at the balcony and listen the funny conversation like..
    MR A: Leng Lui.. what is ur weight.. what is ur name..
    Miss C: I am 90kg.. my name is RU HUa...
    MR A: WaH.. Listen to ur voice like over 100kg weight wow..
    MR B: FUCK U ALL.. KEEP QUIET PLS..
    Miss D: HEy U ALL IDIOT.. MORON.. GO AND SLEEP..
    MR E : MR A are u hot.. take off ur clothes then..
    MR A : I didnt wear anythings now.. Now I have nth.. only left sperm .. ..
    and etc..
     
    haih.. LoL.. what a funny night... at here No eletricity no need to scare to be bored lo..
    Got this few ka lou.. u wont be bored gua.. hehe
     
    March 08

    back to normal...

    开学了。。朋友们回来了。。
    housemate roommate 都到齐了。。
    一切恢复原来的样子。。
    我们吃喝玩乐。。 上课迟到。。
    开开心心的在一起。。。
    我不感到寂寞了。。
    有你们的陪伴。。
    我变得比较有活力。。
    忽然觉得你们对我来说好重要。。
    朋友在生命里,扮演很重要的角色。。
    有时真得不能分辨情人与朋友到底谁比较重要。。
    记得有人说情人伴你一世,朋友伴你一时。。
     
    可是,我不能想象。。
    这时的我,没有朋友在身边。。
    会是怎样过的。。
    情人真的有那么的重要吗?
    和朋友在一起,我比较快乐。。
    和情人在一起,我比较悲伤。。